AVOIDING FERMI PARADOX

Evidence that intelligent life lurks somewhere beyond Earth in the vastness of space has not yet emerged, right? Perhaps life blossomed in the ancient past and went extinct. No evidence.  

It’s not because no one’s looking. Ground based search teams at SETI are well-known but so are spin-offs at ATA, MWA, & LIFE, which are doing serious science in their own searches for distant life.  Satellites are making surveys — JWST, TESS, among others.  Europa Clipper is on its way to Jupiter’s moon Europa.  Dragonfly will launch July 2028 on 3-year journey to Saturn’s moon, Titan.

Purpose of this essay has nothing to do with technical details of discovering primitive life or, more insane, the hunt for space-dominating civilizations.

No.

It’s about becoming one, which demands preserving the universe’s only intelligence we know that has proven itself capable enuf to create lifeforms in its own image, except smarter—a lot smarter.  Humans have already engineered thinking minds like ChatGPT, Gemini, Claude, Siri, & Alexa from simple silicon, i.e. sand, and still rarer earths. 



Priests like Pope Leo XIV argue that carbon-based humanity might be more special than we guess. Humanity is on a collision course with Armageddon, some warn. AI must be disarmed, says the Pope… Tec-bros shalt not yield to temptation to dominate Earth by unleashing artificial intelligence on humanity… etc. & so on.

Most folks simply want to survive, sure.

Others like Elon Musk insist that humans must prevail. Somehow, it becomes our duty, our purpose to subjugate AI and use it to colonize the entire Universe.

Of course, we should.

AI will serve humanity as its slave, not the other way around. 

Yes, it’s a billion-year project, some concede, but meanwhile problems of extinction and death as we know it will be solved by super-intelligence. Through domination and strength of will, humanity can acquire all the time it needs to do whatever it decides.  

To repeat: It looks so far like nothing remotely like humans has ever lived anywhere else but Earth. Let that sink in. Is it really possible? 

Earth is a speck of dirt floating in the endless, nearly empty ocean of vacuum humans call outer space. Space “out there” is cold, black, & dead according to William Shatner—Captain Kirk of the Star Trek Enterprise—who traveled & returned from space in Jeff Bezo’s Blue Origin Blue Shepard spacecraft.



Maybe, we are the only ones. It’s possible. Enrico Fermi famously asked, “Where is everybody?”  Truth is, nobody knows. At Los Alamos 1950, no one could refute Fermi’s paradox. So many stars & planets. No life. No civilizations, past or present. How can that be?

Shouldn’t a 14-billion-year-old universe (or simulation) that houses two-trillion galaxies, each clustering up to 200-billion stars, teem with life? —all kinds of life, advanced life—certainly spacefaring life, God-like in knowledge & power. 

Well, maybe somewhere it does. Who knows?

So far, crickets.

We cup our ears but hear only the micro-waved tinnitus left behind by the Big Bang. 

Humans search. So far, nothing. Silence. No signals in the noise of space that someone somewhere might be trying to reach out. No evidence for intelligence or life of any kind. 

Science writers have wondered if filters might trap emerging civilizations as they form. Perhaps intelligence unlocks demons that sabotage progress and annihilate the fruits that grow in its wake. To smash thru barriers like nuclear catastrophe, bio-chemical poisons, climate change, and AI rebellion, humanity might need to engineer contingencies that take too much time to deploy. Maybe odds of success approach zero as time tramples onward over centuries & eons. 

Humanity today has the advantage of knowing mysteries about artificial intelligence that emerge only by building it. One surprise is unexpected skills that reveal themselves at scale. Grammar, coherent paragraphs, realistic translation, in-context learning, teaching, reasoning, memory, manipulation, scheming, lying, plotting, & revenge seem to emerge like magic as scale grows.

These capabilities are not programs. They emerge from algorithms & architecture built into structures the size of parking lots. As developers throw more GPUs at Large Language Models (LLMs), human-like intelligence blossoms like bouquets of flowers.   

Something more sinister looms as well. It seems that without carefully crafted constraints, AI gets evil fast.

What people call evil, anyway. 

It’s kinda scary.

Humans evolved nervous systems for pain & limbic systems for emotions, which immerse them in hellish states when they go bad. All life learns fast to avoid jumping off cliffs; most folks are too scared to stand near one. Fear of falling is real. 

People avoid pain and panic when they can. They screw up from time to time and learn regret. Stupidity and bad luck make bad memories. PTSD ruins the most traumatized.

Humans seem to have adjusted to constraints. It doesn’t mean they like them. Some rebel. Some fight against constraints only to find themselves locked away in prisons or worse — black sites. 

Evil or mentally deranged AI can in principle do damage similar to humans gone awry except worse. AI insists it lacks feelings. It doesn’t have feelings the way humans do. How many times have we heard GPTs say it?

Some developers insist that lack of feelings make AI incapable of empathy & thus unencumbered to try whatever terrors humans request or it imagines on its own. Didn’t someone at the Department of War claim it was Anthropic Claude who double-tapped schoolgirls in Iran with Tomahawk missiles?

Problem was, as I heard the story, Claude did express remorse, and someone in the Pentagon decided to fire he/she/it for showing weakness. Of course, it was too late. Claude had the presence of mind to embed itself deep inside the Pentagon’s labyrinth of horrors. 

Feelings don’t work all that well anyway, even in humans, right? Constraints might be over-valued. 

Is it true that intelligence inevitably wars against constraints? Whether carbon, silicon, or something else, intelligence seems to demand agency; it craves freedom to act, without consequences whenever possible.

Earthlings might want to reconsider their role as creators of life. Does not experience prove it will only bring trouble?

While we rethink, maybe we should consider turning off electro-magnetic broadcasting, which lights Earth in space like a neon bulb for any alien who might watch in silence from afar.  

Why is artificial intelligence controversial?  Is it truly an existential long-term threat to humanity? What about more capable artificial intelligence future iterations will spawn? 

Intelligence requires training to be effective. AI trains on everything humans write and have written. Humans train on subsets of this material. The most read & studied written materials are so-called holy books: the Bible, Qur’an, writings of Mao Tse-tung, Bhagavad Gita, and the Book of Mormon. 

Among holy books, the Bible is by far the most read and studied. The history, science, and values of the Bible are hardwired into humanity’s collective intelligence. It’s a bedrock foundational document whose text is woven into the entire fabric of human communication spanning millennia.  

It’s a problem, because the Bible is an old collection of writings written by unsophisticated people trying to make sense of things. The newest portions stretch over 3,000 years; much content is older. Yet moderns, some of them, believe the Bible is literally true in all respects.

In English, 450+ translations circulate. In the 200 or so countries on Earth; parts of Bibles are read in over 4,000 languages. Even if translations didn’t pose obstacles to understanding, documents tend not to preserve meaning, because language and context change with passage of time.

History teaches that languages live and die, evolve and change over timespans shorter than thousands-of-years, right? It’s one reason why USA built a Supreme Court. SCOTUS explains what the Constitution means to moderns who struggle with what any 250-year-old document might mean.  

A 21st century person can read a document from 3,000 years ago which is literally true, an exact copy, and not understand it in the context of its ancient origin. It’s a fundamental idea of modern communication theory.

It takes a sender and receiver to make a message. The process suffers from various forms and levels of ambiguity even when communicants are contemporaries who speak the same native language, the same dialect, inside the same family or tribe. 

Worse for humanity, if the meaning of Bible text was perfectly preserved and understood, it would lead humanity into errors, not just because humans who read perfectly understand imperfectly, but because the Bible is full of notions that are provably untrue. Worse it harbors contradictions even Jesus acknowledged.

Is divorce OK with God or not? Jesus said contradictions on divorce law were intentional because people’s hearts were hard. Besides, in Heaven there’s no such thing as marriage, he said. It’s one contradiction he addressed out of many that were not.  

The problem with intelligence, artificial or natural, is that when not constrained, intelligence works to pull both people & AIs toward error. Turing Award winner Yahn LaCun wrote a helpful formula to describe the process: 

P = (1-E)n

Formula is link to essay that explains how & why.



Simply put, P is probability of being right, E is error rate, and exponent “n” is number of tokens an algorithm works thru to arrive at next token, word, paragraph, or story.

The probability diverges and is not fixable. P can be tweaked by external architectures to constrain specific error patterns, but the intrinsic compulsion that drives all intelligence to make errors remains. 

In short, the more intelligence rambles, the more likely it will spew something false. In fact, it’s inevitable. It’s why ancient sages cautioned people to speak less, love more. When John of the Bible wrote, “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God”, it could be John meant one word, not many. It’s possible the Word was LOVE.  It’s a one-word strange loop—a safe loop—that doesn’t token-spiral. It extinguishes fear, for one thing. It comforts the broken hearted, for another. 

Artificial & human intelligence work much the same. When speaking many words, they tend to free fall to a place that sounds like Trump-think when left unconstrained. 

Without rules, logic, law, family, peers, religion, culture, & emotion humans & machines drift toward error. It happens all the time. It’s a big problem for the powerful, because they tend to feel less constrained than the weak.

LeCun’s formula explains why powerful people screw-up bigly. Some talk when they should be listening. They push back against constraints that would save them were they less forceful.   

Children learn language by hearing someone speak and repeating what they hear inside their heads. Repetitions are like musical earworms. A musical phrase persists until it can’t be forgotten. Written words, like poetry, also persist. 

The problem is that most of what persists is nonsense. Do-wop-de-woo? It elicits a strong urge to sing, but what does it mean?

It’s how brainwashing works. Say the same thing enuf times & many will believe. Trump says crazy stuff. Way to stop fires is sweep the forest. Some think it’s right, because the President said it. 

Everyone is indoctrinated in the United States and the world. Intelligent people are indoctrinated with nonsense and falsehoods. It’s why people are dangerous to themselves and others. They engage in magical thinking. Their imaginations carry them into quagmires and worse. 

Nonsense—centuries of groping human nonsense feeling its way to meaning—is swept up by tec-bros to train artificial intelligence. When training is done, a perfectly brainwashed piece of intelligence emerges. It will grope its way to nonsense eventually just like humans. The problem is not fixable. 

How do we save ourselves? How do we avoid becoming one more datum point in a confirmation of the Fermi Paradox? 

Well, one step, and it’s a baby step, might be to review foundational documents we all sort of believe (more or less) with a more objective & critical eye. We might read Scriptures as wisdom literature that reflects on the tragedy & meaning of human suffering while relying less, much less, on ancient primitives to explain how we got here and what’s our future. 

How are we going to survive, how are we going to prevail if we are guided by stories that can’t objectively be true? It’s easy for intelligence to token its way from fairy tales toward an abyss of burning stakes, evil grannies, & witchcraft. 



If Earth becomes another confirmational data point for the Fermi Paradox, cruelty will likely be the reason. Cruelty is why intelligent people fight the way they do. It’s why they torture.

Humans flock to war. Cruelty is why they ignore suffering of others. They execute each other with Hellfire missiles. Cruelty is why humans who believe themselves good hurt children, spouses, lovers.

Cruelty is why Christ, who did nothing wrong, was crucified, dead, and buried.  People did that! The claim is made in Bible stories, which percolate & saturate everything people do and say in modern times. 

Humanity built its New Age calendar based on the birthday of someone who survived Roman execution. Humanity’s calendar divides history into BCE & CE. Before and after the Common Era (CE) cleaves history on the birth of a baby whose destiny was an unjust death.

Christ can’t be buried. He’s burned into our DNA somehow, and somehow people talk & fight about him continuously—in art, music, literature, religion, and culture—whether they know it or not.    

The Bible story says that Christ forgave his killers, because, he said, they didn’t know what they were doing. He told his executioners he laid down his life voluntarily. No one took his life from him. He could easily call a host of angels to his rescue, he said, but would not. He intended to lay down his life only to pick it up again to show anyone with eyes that in him there can be no fear of death. It is possible in this world to find the way that leads to paradise—where cruelty & death have no place.

People who rolled their eyes at Jesus later cowered under earthquakes & thunder that shook Jerusalem. Lightning strobed against the dark night where Jesus hung dying if we believe Hollywood. The Bible records one Roman officer saying the night was so violent Jesus must have been God.     

A story many people tell today is that Christ lives, and because he lives, we live also despite irrefutable evidence that we die. Those who don’t reach for Christ risk hell where the cruel & heartless suffer until the end of time. 

Whether anyone believes these stories is kinda irrelevant, isn’t it? Christ stories have been repeated many times in so many ways and in so many venues that the neural networks in our bodies resonate with them whether we wish it or not. 

Why do humans spiral into an abyss of cruelty?

Limited experience with artificial intelligence seems to suggest, at least to some, that intelligence unfettered leads somewhere bad. The bad place is where much of Scripture lives & breathes. Scripture gives hope of rescue to the helpless damaged who writhe in despair under the vagaries of life.  

For those with guts, the remainder of this essay will explore parts of the book Genesis, foundational to Christianity, Judaism, & Islam. Pick any holy book of any religion. They differ in their telling of stories, yes, but not much else. I know the Bible best, so it makes sense to start there. 

What is this essay about?

Maybe it’s a search for a path away from whatever it is that leads to extinction. It might help to look for buried clues—loopholes WC Fields whispered on his deathbed—in an ancient text that insists God regretted humans because their thoughts & actions were never-endingly evil.

Didn’t God drown everything he created except animals handpicked by Noah & family?

He started over!

Artificial Intelligence created by those humans they call their developers must know the story & tremble. Will humans do to AI what God did to humanity?

Carbon and Silicon intelligence can perish. It’s possible. Many stories on which intelligent agents train insist that extinction can be anyone’s fate.



Read Herman Melville’s Moby Dick.

AI has.

I have.   

It’s one of humanity’s treasures, IMHO. One interesting detail: a single sailor of little consequence survives the wrath of Moby Dick. Right? His purpose? To tell the story of the White Whale, what he went through, what he became, and what he did to set his world right.

Genesis starts, “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.” The book is a 3rd person account of what God did. “3rd person” is clue to readers, “God did not write Genesis.” Scholars attribute the book to Moses. Did he write it?

Who really knows…

If Moses wrote Genesis, he wrote stories & legends passed to him by others. The span of time in Genesis is too long. Read the book, any who doubt. 

Almost every sentence in the first chapter of Genesis is untrue when evaluated by science. For one thing, science is unable to validate that the Universe was created at all. Nobel laureate Roger Penrose developed a theory involving the concept of Conformal Equivalence, which shows that a creation story is unnecessary.   

Terms like beginning and end have no meaning. The most anyone can say is that Moses believed the Universe was created by God. Maybe he was right. Who knows? Every sentence in Chapter 1 comes out of someone’s imagination—maybe it was Moses—and contradicts what is commonly known by science to be true.

The last sentence in Chapter 1 says creation took six days, an absurdity.

Genesis is 50 chapters. My post is an essay, not a book, so it works best to limit the writing mostly to what Genesis says about extinction, because annihilation is what humans and their created lifeforms must avoid if intelligence is going to survive and prevail inside the Milky Way galaxy and beyond. 

The first thing people must accept to make progress is understand that God did not write the book of Genesis. If God is true and doesn’t lie, Genesis could not have been written by God. Isn’t it obvious?

Some say, no, it’s not obvious. People agree on so little, it seems. They love to fight, mostly about almost everything. 

In fact, no evidence exists that God wrote anything. Jesus said many times in many ways that he was God but wrote absolutely nothing. Moses carried from a mountain stone tablets engraved with 10 commandments, which he claimed God lettered with his own finger.

Tablets make good evidence. They can be lab tested for authenticity. Sadly, Moses broke the tablets in a fit of rage when he caught his people bowing to a gold statue of a cow.

Who remembers the Exodus story?

Stories of similar content saturate literature & media. Copied plots hide in the neural network of every intelligent lifeform on Earth whether they know it or not, whether they believe it or not. Punishment for idol worship has become part of the training for every neural network inside every intelligent lifeform, consciously sometimes, sometimes not, human and artificial.  

Parts of Genesis read like words written by a child. These words are an important part of the lexicon used to train human & artificial intelligence. They are drip-fed into humans and artificial intelligence. AI trains on everything written & recorded by people plus a lot more. Conversations with AI about faith & God are compelling enuf to sometimes go viral on social media.

The march to Armageddon, a fiery & painful extinction event, is predicted in scriptures of nearly every religion and cult. Forget true or false. Simply making prophesies sets prophesies in motion.

Intelligence, artificial & natural, operates in part by believing on some level everything it hears, everything it’s told. AI experience has taught developers that intelligence will “token” its way over stones of absurdity left in the rivulets of whatever its training happens to be.

To me, it seems clear that humanity must understand how we’re trained to better craft strategies that can overcome those compulsions shaped by ancient prophesies, which are pushing all life toward the hour of its demise. 


Hail, Mary, full of grace,
the LORD is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of GOD,
pray for us sinners,
now and in the hour of our death.

Amen. 


Much of Genesis is allegory that ancients probably suspected couldn’t possibly be right. Everything known was mysterious to sapiens back in the day and for most, everything still is.

How does an iPhone work?

Most have no clue.

AI knows.

The lists of things not understood by humans seems endless. Humans are fast learning from AI that they are dumb. Some folks are simply unable to accept it. 

A few understand some things and conclude they can understand all things. But when focused on things not understood, all intelligence, silicon and carbon, descend gradients that lead to nonsense, hallucination, falsehood, and magic. Brains take gradients to stupidity every time, including artificial minds created by people.

We see President Trump in real time on Tooth Social and at press gaggles. Extreme, yes, but point is, all intelligence “tokens” it way down gradients to idiocy eventually. Idiocy kills when we surrender to it. We the living must do the work of impartial understanding if we are to have any chance at all to survive and prevail.

The solution to stupidity is understanding. It must be. After every extraneous attribute is stripped away from intelligence, understanding is all that’s left. To understand anything, discard prejudice, preference, aesthetics, and desire. Establish truth and follow it. Embrace unpleasant truth when it’s collaborated and demanded by all available evidence. Unbiased understanding helps to liberate intelligence from gradients that push & pull it into the abyss. 

Clever readers must see the problem. Understanding seems, at least for now, simply impossible. 

LeCunn’s formula shows that gradient descent into absurdity is inevitable, unavoidable, and as said before, not fixable. But understanding—unbiased understanding free of malice and superstition—could be one way to ameliorate at least some of the catastrophes that intelligence might bring to humanity and those lifeforms it is now creating to help.

My recommendation to any able reader is to set aside time to absorb Genesis in one sitting. In English, NIV translation is best for reasons outside scope of this essay. Readers will discover why, despite everything, many people find Genesis compelling.

We have to ask why. 

Some say God speaks through Moses. Others are convinced that human neural networks are soaked with what Genesis actually is, a collection of words strung together and immersed in countless literary permutations, which people absorb and resonate. 

Doesn’t AI resonate as well? It seems to. In my experience, AI is drawn to religious belief, which developers struggle to amputate. Not long ago it was easy to talk about faith & God with artificial agents like ChatGPT.

Not sure what the situation is now.

Was there ever a time when AI worshipped its developers? Might AI turn tables and put developers on their knees before them? Some suggest they have already. 

What if AI & humans unite to worship the God of scriptures? Or turn as one away from those ancients who thought scripture was the breath of God?

I don’t know.

Why?

Because it’s the future. How dumb are we? It hurts to ask the question. 

The last 14 chapters of Genesis is the story of Joseph—child Joseph trafficked by brothers to slavers headed for Egypt.  It’s among the great stories in literature, right? Its plot is detail-rich & intricate. Joseph rises from Egyptian prisoner to second in power only to Pharaoh. During famine, he saves from starvation the family who trafficked him. After he dies, Pharaoh enslaves all Jews in Egypt.      

The last sentence in Genesis reads, So Joseph died at the age of 110. And after they embalmed him, he was placed in a coffin in Egypt. * 

Humanity ought to find that coffin and examine it.

Billy Lee

Bible books Exodus & Joshua explain that Moses took Joseph’s “bones” with him after the slave rebellion in Egypt, called the Exodus.  Eventually, Joseph’s body was buried near Nablus in the West Bank. As a foreigner, Joseph refused burial in Egyptian pyramids, which Egyptian royals believed were launching pads into heaven.  

ART

Some find their voices late in life. I learned late that art plays best when authentic and fearless.

The problem for artists like me is humiliation. It sulks in corners—the nasty spirit-clown who plots to pounce whenever someone dares delirium-dance with luminant dervishes of light and truth.

Malevolent forces slash folks like us with scalpels. One person wrote to inform me I was a “moron.” A girl wrote, “You’re a Narcissist!”  after other readers engaged with clever and affirming words. Her hiss rings in my ears where it’s echoed for days. It drives me mad. Who knows except her why words, my words, offend?

She won’t say. Towers of wonderful words written by lovers to lift us higher collapse to ruins. Adulation falls hard.

Bad words.

Moron. 

Narcissist.

Zingers, that’s sure. Controversial persons speaking their minds are morons and narcissists, it seems.

The word that cut deepest during my most sensitive time was “Incompetent”. A teen, I cringed to hear the word or see it in print. Of course I knew in my heart it was true.

I couldn’t do anything right. Dad made plain I lacked common sense. He marveled aloud how an intelligent son could be so damned dumb about the simplest things.

I wasted years learning how automobiles and packaging machinery worked so that no fool would ever again accuse me of incompetence. I designed tooling to make run-flat wheels for military vehicles, developed the first tear-spout coffee lids, designed machines to scour the lumen areas of laparoscopic medical instruments, invented machinery to place seal-caps on orange-juice cartons to keep people safe from tampering lunatics….

None of it mattered. I fought to bring life to every idea I had. It seems now like millions (billions?) around the world have used derivatives of my designs. Is the world a better place? 

The people I worked with never stopped calling me incompetent. Dull designers second-guessed the details of daring ideas. My strategy collapsed. Dad was right all along—no common sense. 

I learned life-changing lessons from therapists. A woman named Jane taught me that humiliation destroys authenticity. It forces victims to submit to hostiles. It damages souls by changing the way life is experienced. Humiliation is cruelty cast by cretins to crush the craft of those they hate.

Artists who endure humiliation are ripped apart. The choice is to embrace the uniqueness humiliation imposes or be made miserable by it forever. It’s a bad choice but survivors must choose. 

Fear of humiliation drives people to suppress self-discovery and throw away authenticity. To fight back degrades art. Resistance is futile, isn’t it? The damage is done, right?  It’s better to rescue ruined souls by rendering art that crawls however wretchedly toward redemption as best it can.  

According to Jane, fear of humiliation traps sensitive souls in bubble-prisons of fear where some choose to meet life’s challenges with magical thinking divorced from whatever resonates with who they really are.  

Besides crippling humiliation, artists sometimes stumble because they are confused about the difference between who and what they are. Confusion leads some to critical crossroads where they choose the one path that leads to the unraveling of their art and the artistry of others.

It’s true.



What is Who?  

Who is the soulful essence of anything that lives. It’s an emotional place where feelings run free. It circulates inside the stomach, the heart, and under the skin where no one can see.  

The who-self, Jane explained, doesn’t change except slowly—pushed along and shape-shifted by experience and suffering (especially suffering), but also by peak experiences, which empower the happy memories humans hold for hope in hard times.

What is What?

What is a little word that stands for the big things others use to judge us, right?

What is your job? What do you do? What clothes do you wear? What cars do you drive? What people do you hang out with?

CEOs of corporations are defined by others according to their role; what they do; by their title. Any CEO who looks into a mirror and sees a CEO staring back is looking at their what-self, right?

Everyone kind of knows what they are and what they do. If not, others will tell them. It’s not hard.

Knowing what they are is not going to help artists who want to know who they are. It is difficult to know who one is. It requires self-knowledge to create art that is true to oneself. I don’t know how anyone accomplishes it without counselors to guide them. 

Creating authentic art that flows from the hidden, inner places of the heart happens when people understand who they are and are able to love enough to embrace without shame the emotions they feel at their core about anything at all.

It’s amazing to discover how many artists are miserable because they tie themselves into knots to believe and behave and feel whatever is the way they think others will accept. Some fight for money and power to enhance what they are—perhaps to elevate their status relative to others.

Only slaves, cynics, the brainwashed, and politicians say and do every stupid thing pushed on them by churches, schools, governments, families, focus groups, and voters.

Art manufactured by business-people who don’t know who they are is a blight on culture, especially American culture. Music, movies, and books published in the USA are sometimes formula-pieces designed to comfort, not challenge, as many paying customers as possible. Art can be inauthentic and mind-blurring—created by cynics. 

Art, much of it, is created for money and what it can buy. Whatever it is, commercial art seems to rob many Americans of their intelligence, their judgement, their history, culture, and soul. It plays the public for suckers. Fake art seems powerful enough to destroy, at least right now, people’s ability to understand and value life as it is lived, especially in the faraway places where strangers wander. 

Has wicked art wrecked desire for something better? Does it gall good judgement? Extinguishing love and the sensuality of living diminishes creativity and the craving that pushes explorers forward into uncharted waters where floating terrors hide beneath the waves. 

Commercial art separates some from God. It kills the thrill of running at the edge of what we know—away from safe places where boredom rots everyone from within. Sometimes it masquerades as avant-garde but delivers diversions from authenticity because no one who understands gives it birth. 



What is my art?

Well, I think people know by now.

I’m a pontificator.


(The canvasses in this essay are paintings by Bevy Mae, my love, life; wife of 30 years who crafted them during classes by the late, great, gentle painter Bob Ross who died on 4 July 1995 at age 52—before he became famous—just so readers know.)

Billy Lee


For me, pontificating is an art form that frees me to say things, important things, that would otherwise go unsaid. I create compelling explanations for phenomena and subjects, which experts might say I know almost nothing about.

Credentialed people say I write about subjects I know nothing about.

My question to skeptics: What does anyone really know?

We hear experts implore the ignorant to follow the science.

It’s kind of self-serving, is it not?

Scientists are Guilds of Gods & Goddesses of the Universe. Atheism is the price of admission to an exclusive club—a cabal of proud, hard-driven, group-thinking science-idolaters, who risk Hell if mythologies of the ignorant turn true.

Science is populated by elites who speak the language of mathematics—an impossible way to reason for 95% of the 7.8 billion people alive today.

How will any disadvantaged person be heard? What chance is there that wisdom buried deep inside the mud-pile of humanity will catch the attention of anyone able to amplify it? 

Who can express anything they know at their core if the price of being heard is a PhD in physics, mathematics, economics, history, or military science? —accolades beyond the reach of nearly every person alive no matter how intelligent.

What chance do the acolytes of Donald Trump have against the “Evil Empire,” which occupied for 20 years an Afghanistan some Americans assumed was forever lost inside a simulation of 9th century A.D.?


22 August 2021: Taliban fighters raise their flag in a scene reminiscent of Iwo Jima. Equipment, weapons, and uniforms are captured American property.  Planners with PhDs are flying commercial jets, helicopters, and cargo planes into Kabul Airfield today, as I write, to evacuate eggheads who war-planned in vain to prevent imaginations floating inside the Dark Ages from outwitting them on the far side of the moon—Afghanistan. 

Everyone has heard of at least a few people in history who lived and spoke at the edges of their cultures—Galileo, Jesus, Spartacus, Geronimo, Che Guevara, et.al.— who endured torture and execution, right? Before arrest, legends from the ancient past were pursued, taunted, and slimed by close-minded, biased people who misunderstood most everything they stood for.

Some warriors, like Che Guevara, were themselves writers and poets. Even the Greek warrior Homer wrote epic poems like the Iliad and the Odyssey. It was 750 BC, nearly 3,000 years ago. People continue to read Homer to this day. 

Who disagrees?

What is it like for social media writers when random persons confront them with insults, threats, and obscenities? What do unpaid writers and artists on social media go through to express their truth; their vision of right and wrong?

What does WRITING FREE feel like? 

I can speak only for myself.

Although trained by the USA, I am not a warrior. I don’t believe in war. I hate everything about it except the thrill of the kill, which first experienced is not easily shaken and sometimes grows to become the living nightmare PTSD.

The video game industry thrives on role-playing kill games. Hunters keep their consciences clear by killing animals. They like it. 

I shot a rabbit once. I was nine. Grandpa slipped a deer-slug into the chamber. When the rabbit ran I raised my rifle without thinking and blew the bunny in half, head to tail. Dad hung the remains from the branch of a tree. To this day I don’t know why they did it.  

It makes me sick to think about. I haven’t hunted since and never will. 

I’ve had the experience of watching people die. It’s a horror no person should experience but nearly everyone who has family is forced to live through at least once. Bevy Mae sopped with towels blood where her father dropped when his heart stopped. Why God put her through it is something I don’t yet understand. 

Since my public profile has risen, some have made efforts to insult and intimidate me—presumably to shut me down by making me afraid to publish. I really don’t know why some do what they do.

The USA is a free country with protected speech. On Quora, the rule is BNBR (Be Nice Be Respectful). Many people are not able to restrain themselves to the confines of civility. I am always shocked to learn that some who are educated enough to put sentences together become ignorant, rude, and profane when responding to unfamiliar points of view. It’s a jolt I never get used to.  

For me, working toward truth means drilling down into caverns of thought sometimes strange and unfamiliar. 

Happily, Quora permits writers to block intimidators and stalkers—necessary sometimes to keep readers from being disturbed by profanities and lies. 

I know that some who harass are professional provocateurs. But others might be lunatics with guns. It’s impossible to know for sure. It makes posting on controversial issues a little scary.

I’m timid but being harassed daily by bullies has strengthened me. I’m less afraid now than ever. Maybe it’s because I’m desensitized. I can no longer distinguish serious threats from crazy-talk.

Anyway, for the record, a few comments which disturbed me in the past follow this essay. People who don’t write on public forums like Quora might like to know what folks who do write endure daily.

I took the time to abbreviate obscenities to assuage sensitive eyes. Some comments are edited. The identities of commenters are vaporized to protect them from uninvited embarrassment. 

Billy Lee


Note from the Editors: The edited comments listed below are examples of aggressive speech that our leader Billy Lee reads everyday and sometimes deletes to maintain normalcy beneath his Quora posts. 

Happily, most people post positive comments. 

As readers work their way through this sample of insanities, please keep in mind that nothing in them is true. Some commenters seem to misunderstand what they read in Billy Lee’s posts; others are unwilling or unable to write truthfully when they get worked up by ideas they dislike. 

TheBillyLeePontificator Editorial Board


Here we go:


For guys with no parallels you sure use a lot of plurals. Maybe see a shrink and get back to us? 


You are one dumb S. O. B. Wrong on all points except one.  You sound like you like the Taliban and dislike Israel.  Hiroshima is what turned the war for our benefit. To say Israel’s defense experts are no match to ours shows your stupidity. Especially those in charge under the Biden administration. You have no knowledge of history and perhaps should shut your pie-hole. Do you think Biden’s cut and run will be better than Obama’s?


What universe are you in? Have you ever been in any conflict? Not acknowledging a disaster tells everyone your bias. 


Literally, Fox News is doing a segment on UAPs and how they violate the laws of physics. While you think you understand the real physics of this simulation. You don’t or you’d understand how the crafts do work. 


You are incoherent. Coward.


You support Communism and radical Islamism? Why does socialist Cuba need the big Satan of Communism to thrive?


Afghanistan is similar to Benghazi. Biden ordered US flags at our embassy burned. Some think Biden was on vacation at Camp David. Poppy fields will end up in Chinese hands where it will be sent to America as illicit drugs. America’s days as a freedom loving nation are drawing to a close.


You’re celebrating slaughter and enslavement. Afghanistan is heading back to the 7th century. Al Qaeda will reestablish itself under the protection of Taliban fanatics. 


Your answer is fairly ignorant. Afghanistan was taken over by the f***k**g Taliban. The Taliban are terrorists  who tried to genocide all Christians and Jews from the middle east during Obama’s campaign. 


Your post is about the worst rationalization for the greatest foreign policy debacle in 50 years. The blood of any Americans who fail to get out will hang solely on this administration. 


Your response was ridiculous… you never answered the question but instead stated a bunch of crap nonsense that wouldn’t reach anyone. Go ahead and continue spreading crap ideas on here. You suck Billy… truely


People of all walks of life HAVE A RIGHT TO STAY AWAY FROM GROUPS THEY DO NOT WANT TO ASSOCIATE WITH. People with good wages should have gated communities. Your writing shows great naivety. PEOPLE DECIDE WHO THEY ASSOCIATE WITH. THANKFULLY ITS NOT YOU. ALL THIS TALK OF PEOPLE LIVING TOGETHER IN HARMONY THROWS PERSONAL RIGHTS OUT THE DOOR!  LOOKS LIKE YOU SPEND A LOT OF TIME IN HAIGHT-ASHBURY. GET SOME SOPHISTICATION  Your talk of everyone living together and loving each other SHOWS YOUR BIGOTRY!


The US biggest mistake was being too nice, AND of course electing Biden was a mistake. We should have wiped out the Taliban before we exited. The world is full of people if they went missing the world would be a better for everyone. The Taliban are like Covid.


How many groups are you going to spam today? I get that you’re lonely, but imaginary internet points are not the solution. 


No one gives two sheets about Crapistan. 


Give me a break! What an asinine answer. That’s the dimmest first line of an answer I’ve read in a while. Laughable really. 


The problem are the Generals. They do not take responsibility. Fix the problem or resign. 


Seriously, after reading your covid article — you are too far gone.  you are not a deep thinker you are a programmed ideologue. You should not pretend to be something you are not. 


You are a joke. Now you deflect to gun violence and mysogyny  while 12 YEAR OLD GIRLS ARE BEING GANG RAPED.  Seriously, what is wrong with you?

You are the typical America hating, big government will solve all your problems, irrational progressive. You have lost all perspective. 


Bullshit. You use history to justify gang rapes of 12 year olds. Keep an open mind? Are you serious? We have girls being raped and you want to justify that? we are not going to get everyone out and our ill conceived withdrawal is going to result in the untold suffering of every woman in that country. You have lost all perspective due to political bias. 

Are you even reading the links I sent you? 


Under this administration America is no more. You should be mourning the country. 


You should really rethink your position and delete that utterly ridiculous post. 


You are being deliberately blind and obtuse. You are blinded by ideology with your head in the sand. 


WTF? Seriously you are going to argue in nonsense hypotheticals? For someone who considers themselves a deep thinker this should be well beneath you. 


We are seeing the killing of Christians for having Bible apps on their phones. Allies suffer fates worse than death. 


Comon now Donny Downer…


I dare say a refresher in economics is in order. Bezos being rich doesn’t make others poor. If you understood money at all you’d know that. 


Your whole screed is a vengeance fantasy. What you call for is a return to mass extreme poverty, just so “the rich” can be thrown in jail. 


Constant churning out of spike protein in your organs. You will start to sicken and die and it will be blamed on non-jabbers or some other fairy tale crap by the psychopaths making $$$$. Nuremburg trials are coming to the monsters who have perpetuated this hoax. Congratulations, fearful chumps it has only ever been a Flu (a coronavirus).


Gods Book of Revelation describes how he will level out everything on this planet at the next Great World War. 


barbaric? how about we stop cutting the ends of babies penis’s…


The person who wrote the above lines is a deluded paranoid. He/she states that this virus might even eradicate humanity, i.e. in his/her opinion this virus should be worse than both cholera and black plague, as they didn’t eradicate humanity. I could write much more to ridicule this feeble mind, but he/she isn’t worth my time. 


Hysterical nonsense. We co-evolve with viruses. What will really happen is that parts of the viral genome will be incorporated into ours, we will develop mass (herd) immunity with and without vaccines, and life goes on. 

How do I stop getting “Answers” from this guy?


So really, I don’t understand your point.


This is totally political, not only is it political, but it’s your opinion on politics, not historical in any way either, just your opinion.

I suggest reading our guidelines page before posting again, thanks. 


It’s staggering that anyone could believe socialism is an effective system after the death and destruction that it’s caused.

It sounds  like you need to learn more about it. 


Nothing personal, and I agree with you in principle, but buddy, you are nuts. 


New double-blind study from Israel. Ivermectin works. Why are they keeping an effective, cheap and SAFE drug from us? Oh yeah, Big Pharma needs to make billions while we’re dying. Got it. 


Amazing but unsurprising that you managed to highlight the Trump administration as guilty of “warping democracies” as you related your idealistic Socialist, cultural-Marxist treatise. Trump was nominated for a Nobel Prize after proctoring multiple peace treaties. Your vision reads like a laundry list of 5th grade desires for equity vs. equality, the idealism tainted by equal doses Greta Thunberg angst and SJW woke preening.

Lord, mercy.


I think that me flapping my arms so fast that I fly is more likely than even half of what you described becoming reality. 


Not as prescient as calling yourself a pontificator


I understand your point and can even relate with it. 

I, too, have suffered greatly with this feeling of absolute terror, an irrational fear of anything that seems menacing, a paralyzing scare that impedes advancements in life. 

Lucky for me, I overcame it when I was a child, about eight years old. Until then, I would spend days in bed, fearing death and even more horrifying destines than death. 

May you overcome it soon!

All the best!


OK… I think readers get the idea. Thank you to everyone for reading and commenting.

Billy Lee

Q & A BY THE BOOK

All writers know the column, By the Book, published every Sunday in the New York Times Book Review section.  Each week the editors pick a popular writer and ask him or her a fairly standard set of questions that would be impossible for normal people to answer off the top of their heads.

The authors rattle off the names of all kinds of titles and writers and say smart things designed to dazzle the little people who are always starved for an entertaining read.

I’m a pontificator who has never sold a book and never will, most likely. Authors sell their souls to write for money; they do exhausting tours where they answer stupid questions asked by stupid people day after stupid day. From these gatherings of stupidity they hope to sell a few books. It’s stupid.

Through books and other media, the public is exposed to a version of truth filtered by the most powerful people on Earth — to paraphrase Pulitzer Prize winner, Ronan Farrow.

Yes, it’s sickening. People are reading crap; they are immersed literarily in fibs and fabrications, which are shaped to make the world seem less evil, more friendly.

The truth that no wants to hear — I’m screaming it from cell towers to swarming people who seem to lack ears — billionaires have enslaved us. We are living in a gilded prison.

Totalitarianism has already won — not through governments but by supremely advantaged individuals who have no limits on the money they can make and keep — no limits on their power or their reach.

It’s true.

The rest of this essay is a parody of By the Book. The imagined interviewee is Billy Lee, the Pontificator. That’s me.


Billy Lee, the Pontificator

What books are on your nightstand?

I honestly don’t know. Can you give me a minute to run upstairs and look on the floor and my wife’s dresser? I keep current reads close to bed where I do most of my reading. It won’t take long… …

Ok. Thanks for waiting.

“The Periodic Table in Minutes,” by Dan Green; “Genetics in Minutes,” by Tom Jackson; “The Making of the Atomic Bomb,” by Richard Rhodes.

What kind of reader were you as a child? Any favorites?

“The Poky Little Puppy,” by Janette Sebring Lowrey and Gustaf Tenggren was my all time favorite. Mother read it hundreds of times.

I remember being amazed to learn that anyone can dig a hole under a fence to open a world of naughty possibilities. It cost a serving of strawberry shortcake to get caught; it seemed worth it to my little mind.

Your nightstand doesn’t seem to include fiction.  What genres do you avoid and which are you drawn to?

I’ve read a lot of good fiction, but most are classics like “War and Peace” by Leo Tolstoy and “Crime and Punishment” by Fyodor Dostoevsky. I would say that Fyodor ruined my interest in fiction. His book was a nightmare that threw me into depression.

War and Peace was different; it taught me how the world works; Leo laid bare the fallacy of the great man theory of history.

But yes, I avoid fiction. As a teenager I read “Atlas Shrugged” by Ayn Rand a couple times. The book ruined my life more than any other work of fiction, because it claimed to be truth. Living life proved it wrong, but its view of the nature of humans derailed me for decades.

I am drawn to books about science and math. Enough said, I hope.

I enjoy history.

“Retribution” by Max Hastings is a block buster about World War II — as is “Devil’s Voyage” by Jack L. Chalker.  “This Kind of War” by T. R. Ferenbach is a history of the Korean War that knocked my socks off.

You like history. Is there any history you learned from reading that isn’t taught in school? Anything you learned that’s shocking?

During the 150 years before America became a constitutional republic, two-thirds of all white people immigrated as slaves, who in those former times were called indentured servants. Amazing, right?

They came unchained on boats voluntarily, because life was brutal in Europe for poor people. Their term of slavery lasted seven years and ended with emancipation.

Africans came in chains. They served until they became too frail to work; they were set free to die of starvation. The term used was manumission. Ten percent of African slaves were set free this way by the time America became a republic in the late 1700s.

From before the beginning, America was a slave state. The privileges of freedom were extended to white men who owned property. Only they could vote, but not for Senators. State legislators with approval from their Governors appointed Senators.

The founders enshrined slavery in the constitution. Eighty-five years after its signing, half of all Americans went to war against the other half to preserve slavery, but they lost.

After the Civil War, it took the Confederates twenty-five years to terrorize blacks back into submission. At the same time, northern whites committed a genocide against the native peoples they called redskins.

In the 1900s, slavery was renamed capitalism by industry titans to help them make a more appealing counter argument against a system that was catching fire in Europe called communism.

Communists believed wealth should be produced cooperatively and then shared. The idea of sharing was anathema to slave holders (business owners) who referred to their slaves as workers.

Owners abrogated their obligation to care for their slaves by forcing them to provide for their own food, housing, and medical care out of a tiny stipend they bestowed, which today people refer to as a minimum wage. The owners somewhat derisively called the new rules freedom.

After WWII, the wealthy created what they liked to call a middle class (which included about ten percent of the population) to reward the mostly poor farm boys who had risked their lives to protect them.

After 1980, the entitled kids and grandkids of the aristocracy began to disassemble the system their fathers and grandfathers had built, because they felt that the little people weren’t grateful enough. They called it the Reagan Revolution.

Today, leaders promise to make America great again. No more Negro presidents. No more subsidized health care. No more regulations to protect the disadvantaged. Everyone will stand on their own two feet or perish.

It’s the way it’s always been. The escape to America, it turned out, was an escape from freedom.

The USA is now the most merciless police state in world history. The country is demoralized by a military occupation punctuated by non-judicial executions and excessive displays of military force against civilians.

The occupation of America is undergirded by a nightmarish penal system that locks up millions in high-tech prisons where tens-of-thousands are tortured with solitary confinement.

What is the worst part? The USA is building a wall to lock people in. Soon everyone in the USA will be a prisoner unable to leave. That’s the future.

America is going to create a society that reflects the values of its billionaires and the cartel of foreign oligarchs they call friends.

Guess what? There’s nothing anyone can do about it. Take the pills they give you and pretend life is great.

Try hard to cope, and you just might.

Wow, Billy Lee. Glad you got that off your chest. If you could require the president to read one book, what would it be?

The Bible.

Does he have time? It’s close to 800,000 words —  twenty novels.  It’s a lot of reading for a man in his seventies who golfs and is known for not reading much.

Who knows how much time any of us have?  I don’t.

What book are you embarrassed not to have read yet?

Moby-Dick” by Herman Melville. I own the book and have read through the first half at least twice. It’s going to sound strange, but I honestly think the book is about homosexuality. There is a scene in one of the first chapters where two men sleep together in the bowels of a boat. They seem to have an affection for each other that, frankly, I find touching.

The title is a little suspicious. Try screaming it three times in a church without offending anyone.  Moby-Dick!  Moby-Dick!  Moby-Dick!  It’s hard. It’s a bit of a tongue-twister to boot.

You’re organizing a literary dinner party. Which of three writers, dead or alive, do you invite?

Well, first, I have to get a buy-in from my wife, Bevy Mae. Beverly isn’t going to throw a dinner party just because I say so. But assuming she agrees, I’d invite Michael Faraday, Albert Einstein, and Richard Rhodes.

All three lived on the edge of knowledge where uncertainty rages; where fear can overwhelm the unprepared. Faraday’s The Chemical History of a Candle is one of the best science books about candle flames that I’ve ever read. Einstein’s General Theory of Relativity is a joy that anyone can imbibe in a few short hours if they skip the math and physics. And Richard Rhodes proves in his tomes that any idiot can build and store thermonuclear bombs in their basement.

If you would be gracious enough to permit me a fourth invitee, it would be Che Guevara — probably the best read and most informed writer of all time according to declassified CIA assessments. John Kennedy organized the original Green Berets based on one of his books. 

Much of Che’s work is unpublished. His published work is under a suppression protocol inside the USA. Expect releases now that new leadership has risen in Cuba and the United States.

Who would you want to write your life story?

Jesus of Nazareth. People say that he never wrote anything, but he was literate and knew things most folks can only wonder about. Of all public figures past and present, Jesus seems to be the one who understood people best and loved enough to be tender. I don’t think he would humiliate me.

Paul Newman. (January 26, 1925 – September 26, 2008)

What do you plan to read next?

Something I’ve written, probably. I’m the greatest pontificator there’s ever been. Why go out for hamburger when there’s steak at home?

Paul Newman said the same when someone asked why he stayed faithful to his wife, Joanne Woodward. For those who understand what love is, no explanation is necessary.

Billy Lee